Losing Sleep

I FEEL TRAPPED AND SNAPPED INTO A BOX AND I CANT SPEAK OR SCREAM AND I’M DREAMIN TO THINK IT WILL CHANGE AND BE BETTER LIKE A LETTER TO YOUR GIRL OR BOO WHEN YOU MISS THEM AND KISS THEM IN YOUR MIND WHEN THE HOLE TIME ITS JUST A DREAM AND AINT REAL BUT YOU PRETEND AND TAKE THE LEFTOVERS OF THE COLD MEAL HE SERVES NOT WHAT YOU DESERVE AND CANT BE HEARD ITS OBSURD TO TALK ABOUT IT BUT THIS AINT A TALKSHOW ABOUT SHIT THAT DONT MATTER THE SPLATTER OF WORDS AND FEELINGS THAT BOUNCE AROUND WITHOUT A PLAYGROUND AND NOBODY TO CATCH IT OR HUG IT AND SMILE IT JUST ROLLS DOWN THE ISLE NIKE THE NILE AND NOBODY GETS IT OR ENJOYS THE ESCAPE OF TIME OUT OF YOUR MIND WITH NO WORRIES OR FEAR OR RESPONSIBILITY OR SIMPLE JOY IN THE DIVERSITY IT CAN BE BUT LIKE DISCTRACTION OF ATTRACTION LUST CAN DISGUST AND MAKE YOU FEEL SICK YOU EVER HAD IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. SO BE CAREFUL OF THE MEAL YOU SERVE MAKE SURE ITS ONE THEY DESERVE OBSERVE AND DON’T BE DISTURBED IF THEY GET THEIR FRINK ON. nOW THAT I’M OLDER AND BOLDER AND A SOLDIER OF FRINK I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT THINGS THAT SING AND SPEW LIKE A DR PEPPER FLIP AND CLIP AND SIGH FROM BEING ALL BOTTLED UP AND CANT BREATHE OR SNEEZE CAUSE THE BREEZE AINT FRIENDLY IT EITHER MEAN OR GREEN NOT LIKE MR CLEAN MORE LIKE THE HULK AND GREEN AND MAD FOR WHATEVER REASON ITS THE SEASON OF SHRIMP AND RIP NOT THE FUN OF PIMP OR HIP HAPPENING IN THE BEDROOM INSTEAD ITS AN IGLOO OF COLD SHEETS AND DRY PILLOWS WHEN IT COULD BE A SLEW OF WET STAINS AND COVERS ON THE FLOOR INSTEAD OF BEING A BORE IN THE PRIVATE SPACE TRY BEING A HO IN YOUR MIND TASTE AND LET GO OF MY EGO. ITS MINE BUT I LIKE TO SHARE YOU CAN BITE IT OR LICK IT ANYWHERE AND WHAT STAYS AS A HAZY GLASS OF SMOKE AND AROMA OF DOPE ASS FUN IS BETWEEN US PRIVATE LIKE A PIRATE SNEAKING IN TO ROB A SHIP HES ON POINT OF LANDING A DREAM AND SEEM LIKE HES EXPERIENCED BUT HE AINT HE JUST LET GO AND LET HIMSELF DECIDE AND NOT HIDE EXCEPT FOR THAT LOUD ASS BIRD THAT GOES WITH HIM PUT IT IN A BOX AND SHUT IT FOR A MINUTE WHILE YOU’RE ALL UP IN IT. THATS YOUR MIND . AVOID THE DISCRETION OF SECRETION AND JUST OWN IT AND RUB IT OUT AND SIGH ON FLY LET IT GO AND KNOW ITS HOT TO BE THOUGHT OF WHEN YOU PLAY SO TEASE AND GREASE FOR YOU AND FOR THEM ITS A COMBO TRIP OF SLIDE AND GLIDE AND IMAGINE FASCINATION AND DOMINATION OR SUBMISSION TO THE TUNE OF THE CHEMISTRY OR CRUSTY SHEETS BETWEEN YOU OR THE SOUND OF LEAVING AND KNOWING THE DOOR CLOSED AND ALONE IN THE GREASE WITH THE BEAST ALL BY YOURSELF AGAIN.

Tutu’s in a cabin, up in Tennessee, With a heart full of wonder and some mystery. She’s got bangs on her forehead, so neat and fine, But she’s got a little worry tangled up inside. There’s a bear in the woods, with fur so sweet, Mama Rizzly Bear, with big fuzzy feet. Tutu loves her hair, it’s so wild and grand, But she’s nervous ‘bout getting too close to her hand. Oh, Tutu, don’t be afraid, Mama Rizzly’s not here to chase you away. You’ve got Doritos, and a song to share, But you’re too scared to sit down and dare. Oh, Mama Rizzly, just wanna be near, But Tutu’s afraid of what she might hear. So let’s be friends and just take it slow, Sharing our snacks and letting love grow. Tutu peeks out, from behind the door, She’s dreaming of snacks and what’s in store. Mama Rizzly’s there, with her wild, curly hair, But Tutu stays quiet, stuck in her chair. She imagines the crunch of Doritos so bright, But what if the bear bites—what if she’s fright? Mama Rizzly just looks at her with soft, brown eyes, Like she’s waiting for Tutu to realize… Oh, Tutu, don’t be afraid, Mama Rizzly’s not here to chase you away. You’ve got Doritos, and a song to share, But you’re too scared to sit down and dare. Oh, Mama Rizzly, just wanna be near, But Tutu’s afraid of what she might hear. So let’s be friends and just take it slow, Sharing our snacks and letting love grow. It’s okay to be nervous, to not know what’s right, Sometimes friends take time to come into the light. But if Tutu just smiles, and steps out of her place, She’ll find Mama Rizzly is ready to embrace. Oh, Tutu, don’t be afraid, Mama Rizzly’s not here to chase you away. You’ve got Doritos, and a song to share, But you’re too scared to sit down and dare. Oh, Mama Rizzly, just wanna be near, But Tutu’s afraid of what she might hear. So let’s be friends and just take it slow, Sharing our snacks and letting love grow. Tutu and Mama Rizzly, hand in paw, Tutu’s no longer scared, she sees her flaws. With Doritos between them, under the moon’s light, They’ll laugh and share stories all through the night. Tutu’s not afraid, she’s found her way, With Mama Rizzly Bear, she’s ready to stay. In the cabin, in Tennessee, hearts full of cheer, Tutu and Mama, forever near.

[Verse 1] I’m standing here, reaching for something, Your words fall quiet, leaving me with nothing. You look at me, but I can’t break through, A silence growing between me and you. [Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Verse 2] You pack your bags, I watch you leave, No answers given, nothing to believe. Are you running from me, or running from you? I can’t tell what’s real, I don’t know what’s true. [Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Drop/Instrumental Break] (*Vocal chops: “I wish I could find… the words…”) (Echoed: “Do you feel it too?”) [Bridge] If I spoke the truth, would it be enough? Or would you leave, calling my love a bluff? I’m caught in the silence, the words left unsaid, Trying to reach you, but we’re breaking instead. [Final Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Outro] (Soft fading vocals over ambient synths) I wish I could find the words…

[Verse 1] I’m standing here, reaching for something, Your words fall quiet, leaving me with nothing. You look at me, but I can’t break through, A silence growing between me and you. [Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Verse 2] You pack your bags, I watch you leave, No answers given, nothing to believe. Are you running from me, or running from you? I can’t tell what’s real, I don’t know what’s true. [Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Drop/Instrumental Break] (*Vocal chops: “I wish I could find… the words…”) (Echoed: “Do you feel it too?”) [Bridge] If I spoke the truth, would it be enough? Or would you leave, calling my love a bluff? I’m caught in the silence, the words left unsaid, Trying to reach you, but we’re breaking instead. [Final Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Outro] (Soft fading vocals over ambient synths) I wish I could find the words…

[Verse 1] I’m standing here, reaching for something, Your words fall quiet, leaving me with nothing. You look at me, but I can’t break through, A silence growing between me and you. [Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Verse 2] You pack your bags, I watch you leave, No answers given, nothing to believe. Are you running from me, or running from you? I can’t tell what’s real, I don’t know what’s true. [Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Drop/Instrumental Break] (*Vocal chops: “I wish I could find… the words…”) (Echoed: “Do you feel it too?”) [Bridge] If I spoke the truth, would it be enough? Or would you leave, calling my love a bluff? I’m caught in the silence, the words left unsaid, Trying to reach you, but we’re breaking instead. [Final Chorus] Do you feel it too? This space we can’t undo. I wish I could find the words, To hold us before it hurts. [Outro] (Soft fading vocals over ambient synths) I wish I could find the words…

[Instrumental]

Hey bear, oh hey there, I see you in the woods, with your big brown hair, I know you're just roaming, looking for a treat, But hey bear, oh hey there, could you please retreat? Hey bear, I love your hair, It's so shiny and so fair, But hey bear, oh hey there, Could you please go elsewhere? I mean no harm, I just want to be, Safe in these woods, just you and me, You've got your space, and I've got mine, Hey bear, oh hey there, we'll both be fine. Hey bear, I love your hair, It's so shiny and so fair, But hey bear, oh hey there, Could you please go elsewhere? I admire your strength, your grace, your might, But let's keep our distance, no need to fight, We'll both be happier, living side by side, Hey bear, oh hey there, let's take it in stride. Hey bear, I love your hair, It's so shiny and so fair, But hey bear, oh hey there, Could you please go elsewhere? So hey bear, oh hey there, Thanks for understanding, take care, We'll meet again, but not too soon, Hey bear, oh hey there, enjoy the moon.

[Verse] Tuition mein aayi, ban gayi drama queen, Topper banne ka natak, par dimag hai clean, Rattu tota banna, uski favorite scene, Sabse ladti hai, jaise koi movie mein mean. [Chorus] Aadat hai rote rehne ki, chhodti nahi act, Ratke sab batana, vo khud ko smart track, Ladki lene ki uski style, sabka kar deti attack, Kya karun, yeh kallo hai tuition ki hack. [Verse 2] Copy pages bhar le, par khudka zero plan, Formula ratti, par concept ki pehchaan? Dimaag toh ghode ka, par chala chalti baan, Batein MK Gandhi, par nature mein hai fan. [Chorus] Aadat hai rote rehne ki, chhodti nahi act, Ratke sab batana, vo khud ko smart track, Ladki lene ki uski style, sabka kar deti attack, Kya karun, yeh kallo hai tuition ki hack. [Bridge] Notes har ek ke, photocopy ka dhanda, Baatein toh Sikander, par skills hai sanda, Rote rote happy, virasat sambandha, Dekho, ratta master, anokhi ek danda. [Chorus] Aadat hai rote rehne ki, chhodti nahi act, Ratke sab batana, vo khud ko smart track, Ladki lene ki uski style, sabka kar deti attack, Kya karun, yeh kallo hai tuition ki hack.

[Verse] पग पग पे मुश्किलें बढ़ती जाती आसमान में काली घटा छाती हौंसलों की उड़ान मत छोड़ो राह में हैं कांटे मत मोड़ो [Chorus] जीवन की जंग यूँ ही लड़ी जाएगी हर दर्द की दवा खुद ही बन जाएगी मन में है विश्वास तो पार पाओगे सपनों की ऊँचाई तक पहुँच जाओगे [Verse 2] रात के बाद सवेरा आता अँधेरे को चीर कर सूरज चमकता तू भी अपनी किस्मत को बदल दे इरादों की चिंगारी को फिर से जला दे [Chorus] जीवन की जंग यूँ ही लड़ी जाएगी हर दर्द की दवा खुद ही बन जाएगी मन में है विश्वास तो पार पाओगे सपनों की ऊँचाई तक पहुँच जाओगे [Bridge] कभी हार न मानना अपने दिल की सुन मुसीबतों का सामना कर न छोड़ ये जुनून हर ठोकर से सीख ले और बढ़ते चल तू है एक योद्धा मत हार का चूल [Chorus] जीवन की जंग यूँ ही लड़ी जाएगी हर दर्द की दवा खुद ही बन जाएगी मन में है विश्वास तो पार पाओगे सपनों की ऊँचाई तक पहुँच जाओगे

[Verse 1] You, you’re the one, My heart skips a beat when you call. I can’t believe this is happening to me, Went from wanting to be alone to wedding dreams. Maybe that’s too much, but you found the way, You gave me your blessings, took my fears away. [Verse 2] But then, from one moment to the next, The texts slowed down, the calls were less. No longer quick to answer me back, Telling me the call dropped, your phone went black. I wonder, is it me? Is it something I’ve done? Or is this just who you are, ready to run? [Chorus] I thought we had something real, A spark, a love, I could feel. But love, it teaches, and love, it burns, When will I learn, when will the tables turn? I’m tired of lies, tired of pain, Can’t I fast forward to love that remains? [Verse 3] You said, “We need to talk,” and I lost my breath, Tried to stay calm, but I feared the rest. Maybe you’re stressed, maybe it’s just new, But I knew the truth—it’s me losing you. You said the spark was gone, it faded away, And I stood there, confused, with nothing to say. [Chorus] I thought we had something real, A spark, a love, I could feel. But love, it teaches, and love, it burns, When will I learn, when will the tables turn? I’m tired of lies, tired of pain, Can’t I fast forward to love that remains? [Outro] These lessons of love build walls, not hope, Every heartbreak leaves me struggling to cope. I thought this time would be different, but no, Another story of love that let me go. What else can I learn, how much can I take? Love, give me a chance—my heart needs a break. I just want a love that stays, That simple connection, no games to play.

[Verse 1] You, you’re the one, My heart skips a beat when you call. I can’t believe this is happening to me, Went from wanting to be alone to wedding dreams. Maybe that’s too much, but you found the way, You gave me your blessings, took my fears away. [Verse 2] But then, from one moment to the next, The texts slowed down, the calls were less. No longer quick to answer me back, Telling me the call dropped, your phone went black. I wonder, is it me? Is it something I’ve done? Or is this just who you are, ready to run? [Chorus] I thought we had something real, A spark, a love, I could feel. But love, it teaches, and love, it burns, When will I learn, when will the tables turn? I’m tired of lies, tired of pain, Can’t I fast forward to love that remains? [Verse 3] You said, “We need to talk,” and I lost my breath, Tried to stay calm, but I feared the rest. Maybe you’re stressed, maybe it’s just new, But I knew the truth—it’s me losing you. You said the spark was gone, it faded away, And I stood there, confused, with nothing to say. [Chorus] I thought we had something real, A spark, a love, I could feel. But love, it teaches, and love, it burns, When will I learn, when will the tables turn? I’m tired of lies, tired of pain, Can’t I fast forward to love that remains? [Outro] These lessons of love build walls, not hope, Every heartbreak leaves me struggling to cope. I thought this time would be different, but no, Another story of love that let me go. What else can I learn, how much can I take? Love, give me a chance—my heart needs a break. I just want a love that stays, That simple connection, no games to play.

Verse 1: In a small town, lived a boy with a grin, Round cheeks, big dreams, a heart full within. Loved by all, with a laugh so sweet, Dancing through life on his own two feet. Chorus: Oh, chubby boy, with your spirit so high, You light up the world like the stars in the sky. Embrace who you are, let your true colors show, In your warmth and your joy, let your confidence grow. Verse 2: Faced the taunts with a head held high, Brushed off the words, reached for the sky. Found his strength in the love around, In every challenge, his courage was found. Chorus: Oh, chubby boy, with your spirit so high, You light up the world like the stars in the sky. Embrace who you are, let your true colors show, In your warmth and your joy, let your confidence grow. Bridge: Now he stands, a beacon of light, Showing the world that it's all right To be yourself, to love your own, In every body, beauty is shown. Chorus: Oh, chubby boy, with your spirit so high, You light up the world like the stars in the sky. Embrace who you are, let your true colors show, In your warmth and your joy, let your confidence grow. Outro: So here's to the boy with the chubby cheeks, May your journey be bright, and your future unique. Keep spreading love, let your laughter ring, For in your song, we all learn to sing. This song celebrates self-acceptance and the joy of embracing one's true self, inspired by the resilience and spirit of a chubby boy who finds strength in his individuality.