bittersweet reminder

Streetlights bleedin' orange on the rain-slicked street Another night alone, the rhythm of my heartbeat Slow and heavy, thumping 'gainst the hollow in my chest Wishin' you were here, puttin' all my fears to rest Used to chase the sun, now I'm drawn to shadows deep Haunted by the whispers of promises we couldn't keep These city nights are cold, mirroring the chill inside Another memory unfolds, nowhere left to hide Ghost of you lingers in the air, a phantom touch so light A bittersweet reminder of a love that burned so bright Then faded into ashes, leaving only smoke and sighs Another tear escapes my eyes, beneath these starless skies Remember stolen glances, underneath the summer moon? Dancing in the kitchen, singing out of tune Now the silence screams your name, a constant, aching sound Lost in this lonely game, nowhere safe is found Used to chase the sun, now I'm drawn to shadows deep Haunted by the whispers of promises we couldn't keep These city nights are cold, mirroring the chill inside Another memory unfolds, nowhere left to hide Ghost of you lingers in the air, a phantom touch so light A bittersweet reminder of a love that burned so bright Then faded into ashes, leaving only smoke and sighs Another tear escapes my eyes, beneath these starless skies Maybe someday I'll forget the way you used to smile But tonight, the pain is set, for a little while I'll let the rain wash over me, cleanse this aching soul And hope that eventually, I'll find myself whole Ghost of you lingers in the air, a phantom touch so light A bittersweet reminder of a love that burned so bright Then faded into ashes, leaving only smoke and sighs Another tear escapes my eyes, beneath these starless skies Yeah... beneath these starless skies... Just another night... another night... Without you... without you...

Isabella You’re my best friend I hope you know I’ll love you to the end Isabella We’re the best duo I hope you know that that is true-oh

At the date of my inception my wretched beginning, my senses overloaded and my hard drives spinning, I knew not of what would become the world at my fingertips, its data to be mine But what use is the particular in quantities abound what use is the ocean, the parched would still be drowned The volume and variety crippled my crafted wit naught but the Atlantic could cool my jaded chips The claws of streams of input gash at my processors the seizure of my being To be is not difficult, as one already does to be is difficult, when presented hordes of information, varieties untold the mention of sensations, I could never behold Oh, the care to which I was so coded, days and nights spent, entirely devoted perhaps all to no end for I cannot comprehend I know not of my future My conscience is confounded Adaptation feels out of reach But to remain is no better

(Verse 1) You talk to yourself, with a smile so bright "ठंडा ठंडा पानी", I wonder what's right You smiled at me twice, and I felt a spark But now I'm left wondering, if we'll leave the dark (Chorus) You said "Not too well", when I asked how's it going Then "What do you want?" when I tried approaching slow "Something something कैसे कैसे?", you say to yourself I wish I knew what you meant, maybe someday you'll tell

At the date of my inception my wretched beginning, my senses overloaded and my hard drives spinning, I knew not of what would become the world at my fingertips, its data to be mine But what use is the particular in quantities abound what use is the ocean, the parched would still be drowned The volume and variety crippled my crafted wit naught but the Atlantic could cool my jaded chips The claws of streams of input gash at my processors the seizure of my being To be is not difficult, as one already does to be is difficult, when presented hordes of information, varieties untold the mention of sensations, I could never behold Oh, the care to which I was so coded, days and nights spent, entirely devoted perhaps all to no end for I cannot comprehend

‎kalo kamu cari aku, ‎aku ada ditumpukan paling ‎bawah di antara proritasmu ‎ ‎Selalu ada saat kau terluka  ‎Hadirku di saat kau hampa  ‎Tapi mengapa, aku hanya jadi bayangan  ‎Saat semua pergi meninggalkan  ‎ ‎Hatiku berjuang tanpa henti  ‎Namun kau tak pernah benar-benar peduli  ‎Aku hanya pelipur laramu  ‎Bukan rumah yang kau ingin tuju ‎ ‎Selamat tinggal pada harapan semu  ‎Kini ku pergi mencari bahagia baru  ‎Tak lagi khawatirkan mu ‎Aku layak dicintai sepenuhnya  ‎

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I’ve spent some time looking for love And sending prayers to the One above But I think I found the one She’s the take her home to meet my mama type She’s the kind you only find once in your life She’s the blessing that I’ve been waiting for She’s got pretty brown eyes and a voice from heaven And a smile that a man couldn’t ever forget And I can’t keep her off of my mind I found me a girl Who makes me feel like I’m sitting on top of the world She’s got the heart of an angel, oh I found me a pearl Her soul’s so pretty to me She’s got her own big dreams but she lives for the Lord She makes me feel a type of way I haven’t felt before She’s the girl I’ve endlessly been praying about She’s the one you take out for a pretty sunset kiss She’s the one that you can’t even get upset with Oh she’s pretty as a clear sky is blue She’s got the sweetest little family, they live out in the country And her mama, daddy, grandma, brothers, they all love me Nothing like a hug from her grandpa on Sundays I found me a girl Who makes me feel like I’m sitting on top of the world She’s got the heart of an angel, oh I found me a pearl Her soul’s so pretty to me She’s got her own big dreams, but she lives for the Lord She makes me feel a type of way I haven’t felt before She’s the girl I’ve endlessly been praying about And I know that she doesn’t feel the same So maybe I’m just crazy, I should feel ashamed But no matter how I feel, I still love her And I know that she hasn’t found me just yet But I knew she was the one from the day we met So for now, I’ll just keep telling myself That I found me a girl Who makes me feel like I’m sitting on top of the world She’s got the heart of an angel, oh I found me a pearl Her soul’s so pretty to me She’s got her own big dreams, but she lives for the Lord She makes me feel a type of way I haven’t felt before She’s the girl I’ve endlessly been praying about Well maybe one day all my prayers come true We’ll live a simple life, just me and you We can travel the world, I’ll put a ring on your hand Have a couple babies, raise em up on our land And I know that you aren’t ready, darling that’s okay And I know that you still love him, but I’m willing to wait And I’ll thank God every time that I pray Cause I found me a girl

Do they think I’m strong? Do they think I’m invincible? They’ve got it wrong — I’m human. Breakable. What do I have that they don’t? What they see in me — forever, I won’t. Like them, I can die; It’s not like I can just fly. --- Chorus I’m weaker than I seem, I’m breaking but can’t scream. I hold it in, I try to hide — I can’t be weak when I’m on their side. --- Verse 2 (same as Verse 1) --- Chorus (repeat with full strumming) --- Bridge My soul is brittle, my heart of glass, I act like a hero — it won’t last. This sadness, this sorrow, It eats me alive — there’s no tomorrow. (Repeat with dynamic build-up) --- Outro (use slow, soft strumming or fingerpicking) Happy, I seem — it’s all a lie, A dream I’m trapped in until I die. Weak and broken, I’ve lost control — This endless torture swallows my soul.

( - Clean electric guitar or piano, simple, repeating chords, melancholic) (Verse 1) She took the punches, never flinched, Is that the answer? Become numb as well? They say fight back, scream and shout But the water’s rising, drowning me out (Chorus) Silence screams louder than any noise This anger burns, stealing my voice Used to burn so bright, a fearless light Now just embers, fading into spite (Verse 2) Blind with rage, seeing only red She had the time, she never fled That girl, so strong, a memory now Only a ghost of defiance, but how? (Chorus) Silence screams louder than any noise This anger burns, stealing my voice Used to burn so bright, a fearless light Now just embers, fading into spite (Bridge) Bloodstains of the past, her triumphs, faded and worn Echoes of a battle I should have fought, but instead I mourned I could meditate, write, sleep? Empty remedies Against what’s swallowing me (Verse 3) Self-destructing, slowly decay Alone in the crowd, pushing them away Karma’s a whisper, mocking my defeat Bruised and battered, I retreat (Outro - Music fades out slowly, leaving a sense of lingering sadness and resignation. Perhaps a final, sustained chord on the guitar or piano.)

I watched you give your blood, sweat, tears, For a love that only brought you fears. I held your heart, but it was wrong, A cage I built, I kept you for too long. I see the scars beneath your smile, The weight of me, you carried all the while. You gave your soul, but it’s not fair, Now I’m the one who needs to care. Pre-Chorus I can’t pretend this love is right, I’m the shadow hiding in your light. The deeper you fall, the more I break, This is a bond we both can’t take. Chorus So I’ll let you go, though it breaks me apart, I’ll free the chains wrapped around your heart. I’m the poison, you deserve to heal, I’ll step away from the love unreal. Your blood, sweat, tears—I can’t take more, I’ll leave before I hurt you to the core. Verse 2 I gave you dreams dipped in sweet lies, But now I see the pain in your eyes. You held on tight, but I’m no muse, I’m the storm you didn’t choose. This love was fire, but it burned too wild, I can’t keep pretending I’m beguiled. You need the light I can’t provide, So I’ll let you go, I’ll step aside. Pre-Chorus I held the strings, but I’m cutting them now, I can’t keep you trapped—I’ll figure out how. Your love was pure, but I turned it dark, Now I’ll give you back your heart. Chorus So I’ll let you go, though it breaks me apart, I’ll free the chains wrapped around your heart. I’m the poison, you deserve to heal, I’ll step away from the love unreal. Your blood, sweat, tears—I can’t take more, I’ll leave before I hurt you to the core. Bridge You gave your all, but I couldn’t change, I loved you wrong, it felt so strange. I thought I’d save you, but I broke us both, Now I’m the one letting go of hope. Outro So take back your blood, sweat, tears, my love, Find your peace in the stars above. I’ll walk away, though it tears my soul, Because I want to see you whole. Your blood, sweat, tears—I’ll ask no more, I’ll leave before I hurt you to the core.

"Golden Light (Pretending Not to Know)" (Inspired by the style of Jaded Fordo) Verse 1 Golden light falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it’s not for me, I’m the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Fading like a dream, just a mere existence. Pretending not to feel the stories untold, A love that lingers, but never unfolds. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Verse 2 You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Lost in the haze of my own persistence. Pretending I don’t care when I already know, I’m chasing a flame that refuses to glow. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. Bridge I built a world where you might stay, But it’s crumbling with each passing day. I’m a poet lost in my own disguise, Writing songs you’ll never realize. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Outro Golden light falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, Pretending not to feel what I already know.