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my heart skips a beat at the sight of your anger. you have that look in your eyes that makes the world go silent. I close my eyes and prepare for what’s next. do you ever think of me and feel regret? or in your mind was i just i was the problem all along. they all say everything happens for a reason, but what could the reason be. and i had this dream where i was downing and you were the water. i tried to swim up but i was tied down by your words. i thought maybe if i stayed i could get you to change but i guess I’m not great at fixing things. do you ever think of me and feel regret? or in your mind was i just i was the problem all along. they all say everything happens for a reason, but what could that reason be? i covered up my bruises and say that im ok. When asked i just say i had a bad fall that’s all. the little girl in me knows i deserve better but here i am laying in your bed. Now that your locked away, i can breath but your abuse will always stick with me. when someone raises their voice tears start to well.

**(Verse 1)** The moment you arrived, my heart took flight, Callan, oh my boy, you light up my life. Twelve years of laughter, spontaneity, You bring a spark that sets my spirit free. **(Chorus)** I love you to the moon and back, my dear, Through every storm and every tear. You’re my sunshine when the skies are gray, Forever and always, come what may. **(Verse 2)** With every laugh, you make my heart race, Your joy is a treasure time can't replace. Even when you're older, and your life unfolds, You'll always be my baby, my love untold. **(Chorus)** I love you to the moon and back, my dear, Through every season, year after year. You’re my light, my heart, my gentle breeze, In your warm embrace, I find my peace. **(Bridge)** When you say “I love you, Mom,” I feel so right, In every hug and kiss, you make the world bright. Together we conquer, wherever we roam, With you by my side, I’m always at home. **(Chorus)** I love you to the moon and back, my dear, You’re the reason my heart beats loud and clear. You’ll forever be my one and only star, Callan, my love, just as you are. **(Outro)** Always and forever, you’re my shining light, Through every moment, you make it all right. So here’s my promise, through all of time’s dance, I’ll always love you, my sweet Callan, my chance.

(Verse 1) Raindrops tapping like your name on my phone, Trying to drown the memories, but I’m all alone. City lights glisten, but they feel so dim, Every corner whispers where we used to begin. (Pre-Chorus) And I can hear your laughter mixing with the storm, Faded pictures in my mind, where we were warm. The sky’s a canvas painted grey, But your vibes still linger in the shadows today. (Chorus) Oh, the rain’s got a way of bringing you back, Every single drop, like an echo in black. Nostalgia hits, like a wave on my chest, In the storm, I remember the best of our mess. (Verse 2) Coffee cup steam rises, memories in the air, You and me spinning round like we didn’t care. But time's a thief, and it slipped right through, Now I’m left with the afterthought of you. (Pre-Chorus) And I can hear the music soft beneath the clouds, Stories wrapped in shadows, can’t keep them out. The thunder rolls, it feels like a sign, Calling me back to the days when you were mine. (Chorus) Oh, the rain’s got a way of bringing you back, Every single drop, like an echo in black. Nostalgia hits, like a wave on my chest, In the storm, I remember the best of our mess. (Bridge) Puddle reflections, they show who we were, You in your laughter, me lost in your blur. Dancing in the downpour, hearts chasing the light, But now I just wander through this endless night. (Chorus) Oh, the rain’s got a way of bringing you back, Every single drop, like an echo in black. Nostalgia hits, like a wave on my chest, In the storm, I remember the best of our mess. (Outro) So let it rain, let it pour, wash away the pain, But these memories stick, like a song in the rain. With every drop falling, I’ll never forget, You’re the storm in my heart, a beautiful regret.

Here's a song I came up with: *Title:* "Solo Harmony" *Verse 1:* I wake up every morning, feeling alive The city's awake outside my window, but I thrive In my own little world, I find my peace I'm the conductor of my symphony *Chorus:* I'm good with myself, but bad with everybody else I find my harmony, in this solo life I've built myself I'm good with myself, but bad with everybody else I'll keep on dancing, to the beat of my own wealth *Verse 2:* I try to put on a mask, to fit in with the crowd But it's hard to pretend, when I'm feeling proud Of who I am, and what I stand for I'd rather be alone, than fake it some more *Chorus:* I'm good with myself, but bad with everybody else I find my harmony, in this solo life I've built myself I'm good with myself, but bad with everybody else I'll keep on dancing, to the beat of my own wealth *Bridge:* Maybe someday, I'll find my tribe But till then, I'll keep on thriving In this solo life, I've learned to love The harmony I find, sent from above *Chorus:* I'm good with myself, but bad with everybody else I find my harmony, in this solo life I've built myself I'm good with myself, but bad with everybody else I'll keep on dancing, to the beat of my own wealth

(Verse 1) I don’t wait for your call, I just happen to see, That little light up on my screen. I don’t smile when I hear your name, It’s just the way the words escape. (Pre-Chorus) And I don’t replay the things you say, I don’t stay up too late, Wonderin’ if you feel the same… (Chorus) I’m not in love, don’t be mistaken, It’s not my heart that’s slowly breakin’. I don’t miss you, I don’t care, So why do I feel you everywhere? Oh no, I’m not in love… (I just can’t let you go...) (Verse 2) I don’t notice the way you laugh, Or how the room lights up when you pass. I don’t dream about your hands in mine, That’d be crazy—I’m just fine. (Pre-Chorus) And I don’t count the days apart, I don’t feel this in my heart, I swear, I swear, it’s not that hard… (Chorus) I’m not in love, don’t be mistaken, It’s not my heart that’s slowly breakin’. I don’t miss you, I don’t care, So why do I feel you everywhere? Oh no, I’m not in love… (I just can’t let you go...) (Bridge - Softer, Vulnerable) If I was in love, I’d lose control, If I was in love, you’d already know… But I’m not, no, I’m not... (Final Chorus - Big, Emotional Release) I’m not in love, don’t be mistaken, It’s not my heart that’s slowly breakin’. I don’t need you, I don’t care, So why do I see you everywhere? Oh no, I’m not in love… (But I can’t let you go...) (Outro - Soft, Fading) I don’t wait for your call, I just happen to see… That little light up on my screen.

(Verse 1) I don’t wait for your call, I just happen to see, That little light up on my screen. I don’t smile when I hear your name, It’s just the way the words escape. (Pre-Chorus) And I don’t replay the things you say, I don’t stay up too late, Wonderin’ if you feel the same… (Chorus) I’m not in love, don’t be mistaken, It’s not my heart that’s slowly breakin’. I don’t miss you, I don’t care, So why do I feel you everywhere? Oh no, I’m not in love… (I just can’t let you go...) (Verse 2) I don’t notice the way you laugh, Or how the room lights up when you pass. I don’t dream about your hands in mine, That’d be crazy—I’m just fine. (Pre-Chorus) And I don’t count the days apart, I don’t feel this in my heart, I swear, I swear, it’s not that hard… (Chorus) I’m not in love, don’t be mistaken, It’s not my heart that’s slowly breakin’. I don’t miss you, I don’t care, So why do I feel you everywhere? Oh no, I’m not in love… (I just can’t let you go...) (Bridge - Softer, Vulnerable) If I was in love, I’d lose control, If I was in love, you’d already know… But I’m not, no, I’m not... (Final Chorus - Big, Emotional Release) I’m not in love, don’t be mistaken, It’s not my heart that’s slowly breakin’. I don’t need you, I don’t care, So why do I see you everywhere? Oh no, I’m not in love… (But I can’t let you go...) (Outro - Soft, Fading) I don’t wait for your call, I just happen to see… That little light up on my screen.

[Verse] Wheels turn slow while the clock ticks fast Life’s a whirlwind it’s a dizzying cast Round and round like a never-ending race Spinning in circles but can’t find my place [Verse 2] Windows wide open feel the breeze hit my skin Laughter echoes loud over the wheels' spin Down the road where the stories unwind Chasing the horizon but it’s hard to find [Chorus] Round and round here we go again Life’s a wheel rolling till we reach the end No brakes no stopping till the day turns to night Ride this bus till the stars ignite [Verse 3] Every stop’s a chance to explore the unknown Painted sunsets on streets I have outgrown People come people leave their handprints fade But the journey lives on never delayed [Verse 4] Drivers change hands but the path stays true Dreams on board drifting in skies of blue Lights flash green and the engine roars On roads of memories unlocking doors [Chorus] Round and round here we go again Life’s a wheel rolling till we reach the end No brakes no stopping till the day turns to night Ride this bus till the stars ignite

When I was five, I picked you up I told my grandfather you were the one Clawing at my arm, wanting to look out the window The light always made you look so beautiful You were my best friend, I bet I annoyed you Holding you close, kissin’ your head, but you Always knew how much you meant to me You were more than a pet to me We grew up together, I wish that you never Had to fly up in the sky I know time will pass and these memories will last But I’ll still ask why Why take him away? Why not let him stay? Just a little bit longer God, I really miss you, Oliver Videos of you from over the years Are the things keeping back all these tears Seeing you rub up against my leg Looking up at me with those big eyes, you make me a mess You lost a friend, we planted a daisy Her journey felt short, but it lasted so long, surely Right now you two are hearing me sing this song The simple thought of it’s the only thing keeping me strong ‘Cause we grew up together, I wish that you never Had to fly up in the sky I know time will pass and these memories will last But I’ll still ask why Why take him away? Why not let him stay? Just a little bit longer God, I really miss you, Oliver I don’t want to forget you I could never forget you But what if I do? I cut off your hair I can only stare Your eyes are closed I hoped they’d open, but I know You’re frozen in time So I’ll see you in our next timeline Oliver I don’t want to forget you (I still ask why) I could never forget you (Mm, why take him away) I don’t want to forget you (Mm, ahh, let him stay) Just a little bit longer.. (A little bit longer) I don’t want to forget you I could never forget you I don’t want to forget you I could never forget you But what if I do? God, I love you And god, I really miss you I wish I could feel you again For just a little bit longer.. Oliver

[Verse] Pasta på bordet varm och len Gräddig sås jag lever som en scen Bacon som sjunger i en stekpannas kyss Ett mästerverk i varje liten nypas gniss [Chorus] Carbonara dansar på min tunga nu Med en viskning av salt och ljuvliglju Men fruktsallad ler där i skålen brevid Ett möte av smaker som blir livets strid [Verse 2] Kiwi! Banan! En melonfrossa klar Jordgubbens glädje bär sommaren kvar Vindruvor hoppar i färgfestens kö Ett fruktigt fyrverkeri jag aldrig vill dö [Chorus] Carbonara dansar på min tunga nu Med en viskning av salt och ljuvliglju Men fruktsallad ler där i skålen brevid Ett möte av smaker som blir livets strid [Bridge] Så varför välja när livet ger allt Krämigt och friskt varje tugga är ballt Pasta och frukt i en smakrevolution Ett måltidsmanifest en stor sensation [Verse 3] Koka den pastan och skär frukten fin Två världar möts i kökets maskin När dagen är grå så finns hopp i din kastrull Livets smaker sparkar som en fotbollsmull

[Verse] Bonjour mon amie ça ne va pas bien Le matin commence avec ce vilain refrain Le premier cours c’est la science assommante Avec la prof über strict bien trop pesante [Chorus] Je déteste la science je fuis ce combat La prof avec son regard qui te cloue là Oh la chimie les équations ça m’endort Un enfer vivant derrière cette porte [Verse 2] Tout le monde en silence peur de parler Elle te capte direct si t'essayes de blaguer Les molécules et les chiffres me narguent sans fin Moi je suis prêt à courir hors de ce chemin [Bridge] Et si on rêvait d’un cours où on rigole Où la prof n’a pas ce ton hyper formole Les neurones détendus au lieu de grillés Un monde où les sciences pourraient réconcilier [Chorus] Je déteste la science je fuis ce combat La prof avec son regard qui te cloue là Oh la chimie les équations ça m’endort Un enfer vivant derrière cette porte [Outro] Alors courage mon amie on s’en sortira Un sourire un café et puis on tiendra Un jour nos adieux à ce cours rigide Adieu prof stricte et ton air intrépide

[Verse] I caught your gaze under violet skies Words so smooth but they came with disguise Every secret whispered froze in time You spoke in riddles your truth a crime [Chorus] Moonlit lies they dance in your eyes Fading shadows where your stories lie Oh I believed every word’s disguise Now I drown in your moonlit lies [Verse 2] You painted stars that would never fall Built me castles just to watch them crawl Your velvet whispers hid the storm inside In the calm of your tide was where I died [Chorus] Moonlit lies they linger and gleam A perfect puzzle tearing at the seams Oh I believed in your broken dreams Now I’m lost in your moonlit streams [Bridge] I’ll break free from your silver chains Leave behind the echoes and the pain With every step I’m breathing again No more moonlit lies to cloud my brain [Chorus] Moonlit lies they’re fading away Smoky embers of the games you’d play Oh I believed but I’ve found my way Now your moonlit lies drift into gray

[Verse] You left your kiss on a paper napkin Red like the sun as it's slowly collapsing My heart's a tape reel spinning out fast A scene we both know that'll never last [Chorus] Lipstick letters scrawled in the rain Faded words that still leave a stain Every frame a loop of your face Love's a rerun I can't replace [Verse 2] The room's a haze of lavender smoke Your laugh lingers like a half-told joke The radio hums some forgotten tune Under dim lights we come unglued [Chorus] Lipstick letters scrawled in the rain Faded words that still leave a stain Every frame a loop of your face Love's a rerun I can't replace [Bridge] You're a commercial I can't ignore A static buzz behind every door Your touch was neon now it's a blur I chase your echoes but they won't return [Chorus] Lipstick letters scrawled in the rain Faded words that still leave a stain Every frame a loop of your face Love's a rerun I can't replace