What Shall I Do?

Sitting by the window watching it snow Thinking about the past and the way things go I get a call saying they just towed in my brothers truck He had slid off the road just a little ways from home He’s ok but I didn’t want to tell you And my mind takes me back 2 years to my daddy in the driveway Telling me they found a mass on his brain and he’s headed into surgery He’d passed out a couple times ,but we didn’t want to tell you Then I flash back to now you get so upset when things go wrong It happens every time Chorus But what if it’s the last time What if I never see his face again I’v made that mistake before thinking I’d have more time Just to wake up And see the clocks have all run down And there’s no way to turn them back So tell me How am I supposed to act Staring out at the snow Thinking about my son I haven’t seen him since the fight last Christmas Eve He said you left me like it was nothing and never looked back Blaming everybody but yourself And sorry aint ever going to be enough You say it every time My mind takes me back 20 years to me holding him in the driveway I hand him to the people I love most They say it’s just for a little while Then I flash back to now Chorus It wasn’t supposed to be the last time That I’d ever hold him as mine thought I’d have more time But the clocks have all run down And there’s no way to turn them back So how am I supposed to act Now that snows really coming down I try to figure out why I’m so afraid And I go back 25 years to my mama crying saying I just want to die She was sick in her mind and I’d heard it all before I couldn’t stand it anymore I said do you want me to get you the gun And then I walked out the door It was the last time That I ever saw her face I needed more time But the clocks had all run down and there’s no way to turn them back So how am I supposed to act

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[Verse] I remember nights under starry skies Dreamin' of greatness ambition in our eyes Zyra and I sisters in the fight Climbing the mountains reaching for the light [Verse 2] Athena whispers wisdom in my ear Battling shadows driven by no fear The nights were long but the dreams so clear With every step we held each other near [Chorus] We rise we fall but never lose our way Under moon's glow we find our paths each day Sisters in the fight hearts fierce and bright Together we conquer the darkest night [Verse 3] From the valleys deep to fields so wide Hand in hand we'll take it all in stride Through thunder's roar and stormy tides Beside each other strong in every ride [Bridge] When doubts creep in and hope seems thin Our spirits clash igniting from within No force can break not wind nor sea As long as Zyra’s standing next to me [Chorus] We rise we fall but never lose our way Under moon's glow we find our paths each day Sisters in the fight hearts fierce and bright Together we conquer the darkest night

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[Verse] In a crowded room yet I feel so apart Whispers of silence playing with my heart Shadows of faces that never seem to care Loneliness lingers in the heavy air [Verse 2] Nights grow longer with each empty call My shadow dances on an empty wall Dreams of voices that echo in my head Wishing for warmth in this cold bed [Chorus] Alone in a sea where no one sees Crying out but it's just a breeze Heart's echoes in the vacant night Searching for a distant light [Verse 3] Steps on a path that only I can tread Walking through the memories I dread No hand to hold when the night gets tough Loneliness whispers "Am I enough?" [Bridge] Stars in the sky that don't know my name Moonlight's the friend that hides the shame Hopes like paper on the restless tide Loneliness always by my side [Chorus] Alone in a sea where no one sees Crying out but it's just a breeze Heart's echoes in the vacant night Searching for a distant light

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind

I miss all the chances I take I lose all the progress I make I forget all the plans that I made I waste all the time that I I hate all the things that I say I hate all the things that don’t change Why do I do this to myself? Is it to silence the noise? Or is it to fill the void? We can’t keep doing this I need a break Don’t need the praise, don’t want the fame Just want to kiss your lips, your neck and face Intricate steps in this intricate mess My heart is a bird and your arms are a nest Burning down, who would have guessed? Burning down, can’t take a breath Hiding, disguising, it’s not fine I cannot find it, need to rewind Need to define what’s on my mind