Lament of the mapmaker

I draw lines and mark where the rivers should bend And trace out the roads that I'll never descend A paper ocean, wrinkles and waves Godlike intentions, but frozen in place I chart constellations, connecting the stars A galaxy born, as the ink leaves a mark The compass spins, but I’m stuck on this page Set sail without movement, drifting in place A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true I paint the shadows where the mountains once stood And sketch every path that I’ll never pursue A paper sky, the colors don’t blend Lacking intention, a goal, or a plan I’ve planned out journeys, a million so far Though I’ve traced every line, there’s no path to embark The ink dries slowly, it never runs out A journey in drawings, but no steps to count A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true These maps are a prison I created myself I choose to stand still with no story to tell A paper-thin world that easily tares With intricate roads that lead me nowhere A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true

I draw lines and mark where the rivers should bend And trace out the roads that I'll never descend A paper ocean, wrinkles and waves Godlike intentions, but frozen in place I chart constellations, connecting the stars A galaxy born, as the ink leaves a mark The compass spins, but I’m stuck on this page Set sail without movement, drifting in place A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true I paint the shadows where the mountains once stood And sketch every path that I’ll never pursue A paper sky, the colors don’t blend Lacking intention, a goal, or a plan I’ve planned out journeys, a million so far Though I’ve traced every line, there’s no path to embark The ink dries slowly, it never runs out A journey in drawings, but no steps to count A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true These maps are a prison I created myself I choose to stand still with no story to tell A paper-thin world that easily tares With intricate roads that lead me nowhere A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true A pen in my hand, and the lines overflow The tides keep on rising, but I’m stuck below Ships passing by, they don’t notice me calling I forget I’m in charge and that I’m the one stalling The horizon stretches, but it never grows near The winds whisper secrets that I refuse to hear When one map is finished, I start off anew I’m dreaming up dreams that’ll never come true

My body oh I hate my body The reflection reminds me Why I hate my body My body My body I despise My body The reflection reminds me why Why can’t I be perfect Why am I so nervous Why am I so ashamed of my body My body oh I hate my body The reflection reminds Why I hate my body My body My body I am disgusted By my body The reflection remind me why Why can’t I be pretty Why can’t I be like everyone else Why can’t I look at my body without throwing up My body oh I hate my body The reflection reminds Why I hate my body My body My body I fear my body The reflection reminds me why Why can’t I feel loved Why is my heart broken Why do I feel so alone My body oh I hate my body The reflection reminds Why I hate my body My body My body Why can’t everyone Just let me be me Why do I feel so empty They tell me I’m fine They tell me to ignore what they say But it is not that That makes me feel this way It’s the voices in my mind Telling me to give up Why won’t they shut up Why don’t they just take their own advice Why won’t they just shut up My body oh I hate my body The reflection reminds me Why I hate my body My body I despise My body The reflection reminds me Why don’t i feel love Why won’t they shut up Saying it is all in my mind What do they know about me What do they know about My body Oh I hate My body oh I hate my body The reflection reminds me Why i hate my body All that I know is I'm a thief stealing positivity Hiding my insecurities, my body shame is the tragedy My body oh I hate my body Cause all I know is this drought full of self-doubt My body oh I hate my body My reflection remind me why I hate my body Self-hate running deep inside of me My self-hate struggles stole away my positivity I don't want to live because they're just as bad as me sometimes I wish I was never seen My body oh I hate my body My reflection reminds me why I hate my body

Verse 1: Fading away, like a ghost in the night I'm searching for light, but it's hard to find The shadows they whisper, "You're not alright" I try to ignore, but the pain's in my sight Chorus: Can you see me? Through the darkness I roam Trying to find my way, back to my home I'm lost in the haze, of my own mind Trying to escape, but I'm stuck in time Verse 2: Memories haunt me, like a lingering past I'm trying to break free, but it's hard to last The echoes of silence, they scream in my ear I'm trying to find solace, but it's hard to hear Chorus: Can you see me? Through the darkness I roam Trying to find my way, back to my home I'm lost in the haze, of my own mind Trying to escape, but I'm stuck in time Bridge: Maybe someday, I'll find my way out And the darkness will fade, and the light will shout But until then, I'll hold on to the thought That I'm not alone, and there's still hope Chorus: Can you.

Verse 1: I walked alone beneath the sky Still searching for a reason why The stars above don’t shine as bright Since you have faded out of sight Chorus: The echoes of our past remain They whisper softly in the rain I reach for you but you’re not here And I’m alone with all my fear Verse 2: I trace the steps we used to know Along a path where flowers grow But petals fall and colors fade Just like the choices that we made Bridge: The shadows stretch across the ground In silence now, there’s not a sound The promises we couldn’t keep Are secrets that we hide so deep Outro: I tried to find a way to cope But every road just leads to hope That someday I might see you clear Until then, I’ll confront my fear

Cheguei por volta dos anos 80, em cima de um caminhão aberto, vim sentado na carroceria no meio da mudança, junto com dois cachorros e um porco. Com Papai mamãe, irmão e irmã (Isso não sai da memória) Em mil novecentos e noventa uma tragédia na família, minha linda irmãzinha com 9 anos foi pro céu E eu só tinha 14 anos Quanta dor e sofrimento eu senti ali no coração muitos sonhos Dee vencer , mesmo em meio a turbulências da separação dos pais vivendo na roça, sempre trabalhando sempre firme e forte, muitos e longos anos de luta e desafios. 2009 que felicidade nasceu Larissa minha filha amada 2013 veio ao mundo, Luís Fernando. meu filho amado me separei, mas jamais deixei de cumprir papel de bom Pai. perdi meu irmão foi bem difícil pra aceitar sua partida só resta eu e minha mãe. Eu cuido dela como minha rainha. Nunca desisti , sempre acreditei como um bom guerreiro, eu venço a luta seguindo firme, eu vou agora esse é meu momento de ajudar o meu propósito e missão de vida fazer o bem , abraçar os outros Passado as horas, dias e meses, Indo e vindo todos os dias com meus compromissos eu vou cumprir sigo confiante, sempre de pé