Lost in The Moment

আরে এ গাধাদের দল, কেন এত রং-ঢং? নেশা কর কম। সব দূরে গিয়ে মরা। আমি তোদের হোগা মারি, কথা ক কম। যত সব চোদনার লগে, করছি বন্ধন। স্বাগতম, স্বাগতম, স্বাগতম বোকাচোদার হুর পাড়াতে; ভাম্বোলা, খানকির পোলা, হালা বাথ্রুমের দরজাটা খুল-রে পেয়াজ কি অনিয়ন- সে তো একি কথা, তোদের অস্তিত্ত পুরাডাই ব্যার্থতা। পরমাণুর fyp তে আহে এডি কি, উপরে নিচে, ডানে বামে "Sorry" উপরে নিচে শুধু খালি Baddie তে ভর্তি। নির্বিচ got no bitch, তা আমি চুদিনা। চুগ্ধর সাথে দুগ্ধ ছাড়া আর তো কিছু মিলে না । অর্ধেক নান খেয়ে পেট তো ভাই ভরে না, উদ্ভট শত উল্টো চিন্তায় জীবন কভু আগায় না। না, না, ওয় যে part-time প্রতিবন্ধী, নিজের হোগা নিজে মারতে, নিজের লগেই সন্ধি৷ ভোস্কাইন্যার চোদনে, মাথা করে হনহন। ভাংগা ফ্রিজের ভাংগা মাল করছে জীবন ধন। আরেএএএএএএএ ভোস্কাইন্যার চোদনে, মাথা করে হনহন। ভাংগা ফ্রিজের ভাংগা মাল করছে জীবন ধন৷

[Intro] # Verse 1 Duk-kah ku ma ka-a Mislah na ma pangatayan Dayang ka-a dasa makala-an Bay na ni tuyu-an Ma jantung ni pahalam Tu-ud subay ruka kabalikan # Verse 2 Bay na ni lugtu-an Ngalupa paglumad-bagay Sagut pikilan ku mbal usay Entom ma deyom jantung Landuh buhat ni kandung Llaw-sangom bayhuh nu-palambung # Chorus Tunggal ka-a Isi deyom jantung Mbal kapindahan Ma sataggol ku llum Tiyap waktu Daran ka ni piha Napsu ma entom ku Na-abbit kahadir nu # Verse 3 Bud atas ni tukad Sallog atas ni sangat Hasupaya dukkah ku papapas Sogoh halam upaya Aku manusiyah sidja Labbay ngalupa bay paglumad-ta [ Chorus] Tunggal ka-a Isi deyom jantung Mbal kapindahan Ma sataggol ku llum Tiyap waktu Daran ka ni piha Napsu ma entom ku Na-abbit kahadir nu

I tried to breath while my bodies buried underground My screams are talking to me during a conversation I have a whole life with no name and I am still fucking my place instead of growing myself If I could take I would eat that cake and If I could die I'd jump somewhere high

Let me be, let me be Let me, let me be Be the, oohhh Be the, oohhh Be the, be the , be the Be the biggest Biggest Biggest, biggest fool + I'm the fool Fool that looks like a stupid It is my choice It is my choice It is my choice I made it so long ago When I was just a soul Kill me in there Kill me Kill me in there Kill me Kill me in there Kill me in there Kill me soon Kill me again Kill me good I'm the fool Like a big joke Let me be the biggest fool That's true, doesn't it? + Hitting the ground Sniffing the glue Crashing the line Blaming to mirror Filming the mood Killing soon and horn + (I can not be dead) (I have long life to live) (Don't blame me) (It was just a fool me) Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool, fool Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool, fool Fool, fool Fool, fool Fool, fool

Verse 1 Ketika langit mulai gelap Aku berjalan tanpa arah Rindu yang datang, menyesakkan Seperti gurun di hatiku yang kering Pre-Chorus Kau pergi tinggalkan luka Meninggalkan rasa haus di dada Tak ada air yang bisa meredakan Cinta yang hilang dalam keheningan Chorus Aku haus akan cintamu Seperti padang yang menunggu hujan Kau yang jauh, aku yang merindu Hati ini tak bisa berhenti berharap Hati ini haus, haus akan dirimu Verse 2 Setiap malam aku terjaga Mencari jejakmu di bayang-bayang Seperti api yang padam perlahan Tak ada yang bisa menghangatkan hatiku Pre-Chorus Kau pergi tinggalkan luka Meninggalkan rasa haus di dada Tak ada air yang bisa meredakan Cinta yang hilang dalam keheningan Chorus Aku haus akan cintamu Seperti padang yang menunggu hujan Kau yang jauh, aku yang merindu Hati ini tak bisa berhenti berharap Hati ini haus, haus akan dirimu Bridge Mungkinkah ada harapan? Untuk kita kembali bersama Keringkan air mataku, cinta Dan beri aku sedikit kasihmu Chorus Aku haus akan cintamu Seperti padang yang menunggu hujan Kau yang jauh, aku yang merindu Hati ini tak bisa berhenti berharap Hati ini haus, haus akan dirimu Outro Aku haus, aku haus Haus akan dirimu Aku haus, aku haus Rinduku tak pernah reda

"Golden Light (Pretending Not to Know)" (Inspired by the style of Jaded Fordo) Verse 1 Golden light falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it’s not for me, I’m the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Fading like a dream, just a mere existence. Pretending not to feel the stories untold, A love that lingers, but never unfolds. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Verse 2 You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Lost in the haze of my own persistence. Pretending I don’t care when I already know, I’m chasing a flame that refuses to glow. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. Bridge I built a world where you might stay, But it’s crumbling with each passing day. I’m a poet lost in my own disguise, Writing songs you’ll never realize. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Outro Golden light falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, Pretending not to feel what I already know.

"Golden Light (Pretending Not to Know)" (Inspired by the style of Jaded Fordo) Verse 1 Golden light falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it’s not for me, I’m the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Fading like a dream, just a mere existence. Pretending not to feel the stories untold, A love that lingers, but never unfolds. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Verse 2 You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Lost in the haze of my own persistence. Pretending I don’t care when I already know, I’m chasing a flame that refuses to glow. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. Bridge I built a world where you might stay, But it’s crumbling with each passing day. I’m a poet lost in my own disguise, Writing songs you’ll never realize. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Outro Golden light falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, Pretending not to feel what I already know.

### **"Blonde Curly Hair (Pretending Not to Know)"** *(Inspired by the style of Jaded Fordo)* --- **Verse 1** Blonde curls falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it's not for me, I'm the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. --- **Pre-Chorus** And I know what you did in Bali, But I’m keeping it quiet, yeah, I’m playing folly. Pretending I don’t see the stories unfold, The version of you that’s so cold. --- **Chorus** Blonde girl with curls, you're my silent regret, A dream I can't wake from, a love unmet. I'm drowning in the words I can't ever say, Afraid you'll just let me drift away. Blonde girl, you don't even know, The way you’ve got my heart in tow. But you never showed me more than a glance, Still, I can’t help but want a chance. --- **Verse 2** You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. --- **Pre-Chorus** And I know what you did in Bali, But I’m keeping it quiet, yeah, it’s my folly. You’re a story I’ve written, but you’ll never read, A silent obsession, a heart that bleeds. --- **Chorus** Blonde girl with curls, you're my silent regret, A dream I can't wake from, a love unmet. I'm drowning in the words I can't ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Blonde girl, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you'd see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. --- **Bridge** I know the truth, but I stay in the dark, Afraid of the flame that’ll burn my heart. You’re the kind of story I can’t let go, Even when it’s written with undertones of no. I’m the fool who keeps pretending, A hopeless tale with no happy ending. But I’d rather dream than face the fall, 'Cause losing you would end it all. --- **Chorus** Blonde girl with curls, you're my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Blonde girl, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. --- **Outro** Blonde curls falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, I’m pretending not to know… yeah, I’m pretending not to know.

Verse 1 Blonde curls falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it's not for me, I'm the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. Pre-Chorus And I know what you did in Bali, But I’m keeping it quiet, yeah, I’m playing folly. Pretending I don’t see the stories unfold, The version of you that’s so cold. Chorus Blonde girl with curls, you're my silent regret, A dream I can't wake from, a love unmet. I'm drowning in the words I can't ever say, Afraid you'll just let me drift away. Blonde girl, you don't even know, The way you’ve got my heart in tow. But you never showed me more than a glance, Still, I can’t help but want a chance. Verse 2 You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. Pre-Chorus And I know what you did in Bali, But I’m keeping it quiet, yeah, it’s my folly. You’re a story I’ve written, but you’ll never read, A silent obsession, a heart that bleeds. Chorus Blonde girl with curls, you're my silent regret, A dream I can't wake from, a love unmet. I'm drowning in the words I can't ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Blonde girl, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you'd see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Bridge I know the truth, but I stay in the dark, Afraid of the flame that’ll burn my heart. You’re the kind of story I can’t let go, Even when it’s written with undertones of no. I’m the fool who keeps pretending, A hopeless tale with no happy ending. But I’d rather dream than face the fall, 'Cause losing you would end it all. Chorus Blonde girl with curls, you're my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Blonde girl, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. Outro Blonde curls falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, I’m pretending not to know… yeah, I’m pretending not to know.

Four Years" We've been side by side for all these years, Laughed through the highs, cried through the tears. Built a life where you know all of me, Every dream, every fear, every secret I keep. But lately, something’s changed inside, A quiet feeling I can’t deny. The line’s been blurred, but do you see? This heart beats loud for you and me. Four years of best friends, that’s where it began, But now I’m wondering if there’s a bigger plan. Could we be more than we thought we’d ever be? I’m risking it all, so you could see… I’m in love, I’m in love with you and me. You’re the one who knows my soul, All the pieces that make me whole. And I’m scared to say what’s true, 'Cause I don’t wanna lose you. But every look, it lingers more, And every touch I can’t ignore. If I don’t try, then we’ll never know, If this love could start to grow. Four years of best friends, that’s where it began, But now I’m wondering if there’s a bigger plan. Could we be more than we thought we’d ever be? I’m risking it all, so you could see… I’m in love, I’m in love with you and me. It’s the hardest thing to say, What if you don’t feel the same way? But I’d rather know than wonder forever, If we could cross that line together. Final Chorus Four years of best friends, but now it’s so clear, The love I’ve been hiding, it’s finally here. So here I am, heart on my sleeve, Taking a chance, hoping you believe, That I’m in love, so in love with you and me. Four years, best friends, and now this leap, Into something deep, into something sweet. So tell me, do you feel it too? 'Cause I’m in love… with you.

[Verse 1] (Sweet & longing) I really want your love, I really need your love I really need you, you’re all I’m dreaming of Every day I think of you, every night I see you A face so perfect, it’s like a dream come true [La la la – soft and dreamy] La la la, I’m falling deep You’re all I need [Pre-Chorus] (Still sweet, hinting at obsession) I always loved you, I can’t explain it, I just know somehow Your voice is haunting, it’s in my head You’re everything, the words you said [Music Stops – Talking Section in a male voice] “Excuse me, I think you dropped this.” [Chorus] I really need your love, I can’t let go You’re the only thing that matters, and it’s starting to show Every day, every night, I see you I want you, I need you, I can’t handle it anymore [La la la – bittersweet and emotional] La la la, it’s pulling me in Where do I begin? [Verse 2] (Creepy vibes intensify) I see you walking down the street, you don’t know I’m there I’ve memorized the way you smile, the color of your hair Every step you take, every move you make I’ll follow close, for my heart’s sake [La la la – eerie and lingering] La la la, I’m here to stay La la la, you’ll never stray [Music Stops – Talking Section, calm but quiet] “You never noticed me, did you? But I noticed you. Every single detail. Your favorite coffee shop, the way you hum when you’re alone… I’m not crazy, you’re just… perfect. And I’ll make you see that, one way or another.” [Bridge] (Eerie, building tension) It’s not enough to watch from afar I know your schedule, I know where you are I write your name a hundred times Tell me, is that a crime? [La la la – chilling and obsessive] La la la, I feel your breath La la la, it’s you I’ll possess [Chorus – Darker Reprise] I really need your love, it’s consuming me You’re the only thing I want, can’t you see? Every day, every night, I’m coming apart There’s nothing left of me without you [La la la – haunting and unresolved] La la la, it’s too late now La la la, I’ll show you how [Outro] (Haunting and unresolved) I always loved you, And now you will too…