ICARUS

Idę parkiem, jak z cebra pada, kaptur zakładam i idę nadal. Na chodnik postać blada ciężko upada, obok dom sąsiada - ktoś tam wciąż się skrada. Ze sobą narada: spadać czy to zbadać? Coś podpowiada: zostaw, nie wypada. Dylemat nie lada bo wypada nie zostawiać, lecz postać blada weszła za mroku parawan... Ciężka sprawa, cień na mnie nie pada, w dziwny stan to wprawia jak Szeherezada. Nagle skurcz mnie dopada więc na ławce siadam, a do drzwi sąsiada dobija się jakaś stara baba. Chora faza, to pewnie ta mocna trawa... Rozważam: po co była mi ta nocna wyprawa? i zauważam, że z placu zabaw idzie parada... Na czele - postać blada - psycha niedomaga! ref: Chory film, chory Ty i chory ja, to chore dni, chore sny i chory świat, upiory w nim budzą dziś upiory w nas, nie znamy ich choć ich ryj to lustra twarz. To chory film, chory Ty i chory ja, to chore dni, chore sny i chory świat, w tym świecie żyj brat, idź, upływa czas, byś dożył chwil gdy to Ty pokonasz strach. Zmiana kadru - poranek, Nowa Huta. W przemoczonych butach szukam co tak stuka. To chyba tutaj, w drzwiach judasz, pukam, czekam, słucham, nic, wjeżdżam z buta. Okiem rzucam: hala w chuj długa, żarówa mruga, sufit wsparty jest na stalowych słupach, na jednym z nich krwi struga, pod nim kałuża... Kurwa! wzrósł już puls - druga stówa! W przód się posuwam bo klamka zepsuta, hala czarna jak dupa, nawet na ścianach kupa. To dom Belzebuba, chyba umrę już tutaj choć adrenalina w żyłach ożywiłaby trupa. Brzęczy mi w uszach - to dźwięki łańcucha, coś jak z filmu o duchach. Co jeśli to kostucha?! Już chłód czuję w płucach - chmura pary gdy chucham, nagle ból jak chuj - nóż wystajemi z brzucha ref: Chory film, chory Ty i chory ja, to chore dni, chore sny i chory świat, upiory w nim budzą dziś upiory w nas, nie znamy ich choć ich ryj to lustra twarz. To chory film, chory Ty i chory ja, to chore dni, chore sny i chory świat, w tym świecie żyj brat, idź, upływa czas, byś dożył chwil gdy to Ty pokonasz strach. Kolejna kulminacja, znów mrugają światła, na stole leżę, brak mi tchu, to operacja? incepcja - niewolnik snów? Co to za akcja? W brzuchu już nie tkwi nóż, za to dezorientacja. Pęka czaszka, ból wciąż narasta od najmniejszych palców u stóp aż po kaftan. W płucach znów czuję chłód plus krwią kasłam. U drzwi klucz i klamka w dół - to duchy w maskach! Serca palpitacja, krew staje się rzadsza. Chciałbym ryj drzeć lecz w gardle drzazga. Wchodzi jakaś laska, też na twarzy maska, cera jak wapno jasna, do diaska... W końcu czas łaski nastał - budzi mnie matka: "Wstawaj, już trzynasta, przyszła do Ciebie paczka." Po nocy spocony, co w paczce, sprawdzam... szok - na zdjęciu: w masce blada laska...

I built my walls so high, no one could climb, Shadows of the past whisper in my mind. But a flicker of hope is breaking through the dark, A quiet reminder, love can restart. It’s a long road back when you're lost in the pain, But every sunrise whispers, “You can try again.” So I’m standing here with an open heart, Every broken piece is a brand-new start. The storm has passed, the rain has died, Now it’s just me and an open sky. I’m learning to trust, I’m learning to see, That love might still believe in me. Your eyes hold a truth, a gentle flame, Telling me I don’t have to be the same. Every step I take feels like letting go, The scars are lessons that help me grow. It’s a leap of faith into the great unknown, But I won’t let fear turn my heart to stone. So I’m standing here with an open heart, Every broken piece is a brand-new start. The storm has passed, the rain has died, Now it’s just me and an open sky. I’m learning to trust, I’m learning to see, That love might still believe in me. Every tear was a river, leading me to you, Every wound was a story of breaking through. Now I hold my head high, feel the winds collide, And I trust this love won’t run and hide. I’m standing here with an open heart, Every broken piece is a work of art. The storm has passed, the rain has died, Now it’s just us beneath the open sky. I’m learning to trust, I’m learning to see, That love has always believed in me.

lyrics title: Divine Guidance lyrics content: [Verse] [Spiritual] In the quiet whispers of my heart I seek Your light, I yearn to start Holy Spirit, guide my way Transform my soul, in You I’ll stay [Chorus] [Worship] True fulfillment, not in man's embrace But in Your love, I find my place Teach me, lead me, be my shield In Your presence, my spirit healed [Verse] [Spiritual] Through trials and storms, I trust Your grace You change my heart, I feel Your trace With every step, I’m not alone Holy Spirit, I’m homeward bound [Chorus] [Worship] True fulfillment, not in man's embrace But in Your love, I find my place Teach me, lead me, be my shield In Your presence, my spirit healed

Rough sex and no one else, please come help. I need you now. Slap me, tell me, beat me, and help me see again. I miss the way your hair used to glide on your face. I miss the way you used to scream my name and tell me don’t stop…Please, please, i miss the way you used to scream.

[chorus] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through [rap] [male] I’m addicted to your absence, yeah, I thrive on the distance, like I’m starvin’ for a taste of pain, and my fucked up existence, You left me in the dark, but I’m out here lightin’ matches, burnin’ bridges that I built, like I’m proud of all these scratches, Look at me now, look at me now! I’m so numb I’m practically frozen, still lookin’ for a reason why I’m chasin’ what’s been broken, It’s like I’m fightin’ my own mind just to make sense of all your shit, every word you say blocks the light, like it's a solar eclipse. You’re the drug and I’m the needle, and boy, I’m shootin’ up the high, tellin’ myself I’m done, but I’ll never say goodbye, Bitch I'm sick of the mind games! but I can’t escape this cage, it’s like I’m addicted to the madness, flood my veins with the hate, Yeah, and I’m twisted as hell, but I’ll keep spinnin’ the wheel, playin’ Russian Roulette, with fuck, I don't even know what is real, I’ll burn all my bridges just to watch ‘em turn to dust, and then I’ll watch myself sink, ’cause it’s all I can trust... [chorus] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through [rap] [male] I keep comin’ back to the wreckage that you left behind, I’m a moth to the flame, yeah, you got me blind, I’ll pretend that I’m fine, yeah, I’ll wear it like a crown, but inside I’m fallin’ apart while I’m searchin’ you down, You don’t care, but that’s fine, I’m just another sad joke, I’ll keep writin’ these lines while I choke on the smoke, You left me in silence, but somehow I’m still speakin’, addicted to the void, it’s the only thing that’s leakin’. And I laugh at myself ‘cause I’m lost in the confusion, addicted to the chaos, it's a self-inflicted illusion, Told myself I’d walk away, but I’m stuck on repeat, beggin’ for the same old silence like it’s all I ever need, Oh, and when you ghost me, man, I’m addicted to the static, like I’m starvin’ for your absence, fuck, that’s automatic, I’m a wreck, but I’ll wear it like a crown on my head, and I’ll keep playin’ this game while I’m drowning in this dread. [bridge] [female] Cause I'm caught in my own head, but yet I act like I'm free I'm chasing ghosts because of you, but it's just me chasing me [chorus] [female and male] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn (Burnnnnnn...) Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn (TAKE THEIR TURRRNNNN!!!) Think me through, think me through, think me through (Think me through!) (THINK ME THROUGH!!!) [outro] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you (Ooohhhhh)

[chorus] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through [rap] [male] I’m addicted to your absence, yeah, I thrive on the distance, like I’m starvin’ for a taste of pain, and my fucked up existence, You left me in the dark, but I’m out here lightin’ matches, burnin’ bridges that I built, like I’m proud of all these scratches, Look at me now, look at me now! I’m so numb I’m practically frozen, still lookin’ for a reason why I’m chasin’ what’s been broken, It’s like I’m fightin’ my own mind just to make sense of all your shit, every word you say blocks the light, like it's a solar eclipse. You’re the drug and I’m the needle, and boy, I’m shootin’ up the high, tellin’ myself I’m done, but I’ll never say goodbye, Bitch I'm sick of the mind games! but I can’t escape this cage, it’s like I’m addicted to the madness, flood my veins with the hate, Yeah, and I’m twisted as hell, but I’ll keep spinnin’ the wheel, playin’ Russian Roulette, with fuck, I don't even know what is real, I’ll burn all my bridges just to watch ‘em turn to dust, and then I’ll watch myself sink, ’cause it’s all I can trust... [chorus] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through [rap] [male] I keep comin’ back to the wreckage that you left behind, I’m a moth to the flame, yeah, you got me blind, I’ll pretend that I’m fine, yeah, I’ll wear it like a crown, but inside I’m fallin’ apart while I’m searchin’ you down, You don’t care, but that’s fine, I’m just another sad joke, I’ll keep writin’ these lines while I choke on the smoke, You left me in silence, but somehow I’m still speakin’, addicted to the void, it’s the only thing that’s leakin’. And I laugh at myself ‘cause I’m lost in the confusion, addicted to the chaos, it's a self-inflicted illusion, Told myself I’d walk away, but I’m stuck on repeat, beggin’ for the same old silence like it’s all I ever need, Oh, and when you ghost me, man, I’m addicted to the static, like I’m starvin’ for your absence, fuck, that’s automatic, I’m a wreck, but I’ll wear it like a crown on my head, and I’ll keep playin’ this game while I’m drowning in this dread. [bridge] [female] Cause I'm caught in my own head, but yet I act like I'm free I'm chasing ghosts because of you, but it's just me chasing me [chorus] [female and male] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn (Burnnnnnn...) Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn (TAKE THEIR TURRRNNNN!!!) Think me through, think me through, think me through (Think me through!) (THINK ME THROUGH!!!) [outro] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you (Ooohhhhh)

[chorus] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through [rap] [male] I’m addicted to your absence, yeah, I thrive on the distance, like I’m starvin’ for a taste of pain, and my fucked up existence, You left me in the dark, but I’m out here lightin’ matches, burnin’ bridges that I built, like I’m proud of all these scratches, Look at me now, look at me now! I’m so numb I’m practically frozen, still lookin’ for a reason why I’m chasin’ what’s been broken, It’s like I’m fightin’ my own mind just to make sense of all your shit, every word you say blocks the light, like it's a solar eclipse. You’re the drug and I’m the needle, and boy, I’m shootin’ up the high, tellin’ myself I’m done, but I’ll never say goodbye, Bitch I'm sick of the mind games! but I can’t escape this cage, it’s like I’m addicted to the madness, flood my veins with the hate, Yeah, and I’m twisted as hell, but I’ll keep spinnin’ the wheel, playin’ Russian Roulette, with fuck, I don't even know what is real, I’ll burn all my bridges just to watch ‘em turn to dust, and then I’ll watch myself sink, ’cause it’s all I can trust... [chorus] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through [rap] [male] I keep comin’ back to the wreckage that you left behind, I’m a moth to the flame, yeah, you got me blind, I’ll pretend that I’m fine, yeah, I’ll wear it like a crown, but inside I’m fallin’ apart while I’m searchin’ you down, You don’t care, but that’s fine, I’m just another sad joke, I’ll keep writin’ these lines while I choke on the smoke, You left me in silence, but somehow I’m still speakin’, addicted to the void, it’s the only thing that’s leakin’. And I laugh at myself ‘cause I’m lost in the confusion, addicted to the chaos, it's a self-inflicted illusion, Told myself I’d walk away, but I’m stuck on repeat, beggin’ for the same old silence like it’s all I ever need, Oh, and when you ghost me, man, I’m addicted to the static, like I’m starvin’ for your absence, fuck, that’s automatic, I’m a wreck, but I’ll wear it like a crown on my head, and I’ll keep playin’ this game while I’m drowning in this dread. [bridge] [female] Cause I'm caught in my own head, but yet I act like I'm free I'm chasing ghosts because of you, but it's just me chasing me [chorus] [female and male] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn (Burnnnnnn...) Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn (TAKE THEIR TURRRNNNN!!!) Think me through, think me through, think me through (Think me through!) (THINK ME THROUGH!!!) [outro] [female] Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you (Ooohhhhh)

Gia đình ông Khải bà Huệ, Có con trai tên Duy, tuổi trẻ ham chơi. Bị bạn xấu dụ dỗ, Vào con đường nghiện ngập, tài xỉu nợ nần. Rồi mắc phải căn bệnh, HIV hiểm nghèo, thân thể suy kiệt. Ban đầu chỉ là vui chơi, Cờ bạc tài xỉu, thử cho biết. Nhưng rồi nghiện lúc nào không hay, Tiền bạc tiêu tan, nợ nần chồng chất. Gia đình ban đầu không biết, Duy giấu giếm, nói dối để che đậy. Nhưng rồi sự thật phơi bày, Khi chủ nợ đến nhà đòi tiền. Trong cơn nghiện ngập, Duy sa đọa, Thân thể suy nhược, bệnh tật đầy mình. Rồi một ngày kia, bác sĩ thông báo, Duy mắc phải HIV, căn bệnh thế kỷ. Ông Khải khi biết, giận dữ tột cùng, Đánh đập Duy không thương tiếc. Bà Huệ khóc lóc, la mắng con, "Tại sao con lại làm vậy?" Anh trai Huy, người luôn mẫu mực, Cũng không kìm được, đánh Duy tơi bời. Em trai Lâm, còn nhỏ tuổi, Nhìn anh với ánh mắt khinh bỉ. Hàng xóm láng giềng, ai cũng biết, Chỉ trỏ bàn tán, lời ra tiếng vào. "Con ông Khải bà Huệ, thật là hư hỏng," "Ngày xưa ngoan ngoãn, giờ thành ra thế." Có người thương cảm, có người chê bai, Nhưng đa số đều xa lánh, sợ hãi. Duy trong lòng cũng hối hận, Muốn thoát khỏi, nhưng sức lực đâu còn. Cơn nghiện hành hạ, không thể cưỡng lại, Nợ nần đè nặng, không lối thoát. Có lúc Duy muốn tự tử, Nhưng nghĩ đến cha mẹ, lại thôi. Rồi lại sa vào vòng xoáy, Cờ bạc, ma túy, chẳng thể dừng. Ông Khải bà Huệ, dù giận dữ, Nhưng vẫn thương con, tìm cách cứu chữa. Đưa Duy đi cai nghiện, nhưng không thành, Vì Duy trốn thoát, lại trở về con đường cũ. Anh Huy cũng cố gắng khuyên nhủ, Nhưng Duy không nghe, cứ lầm lì. Em Lâm thì ngày càng xa cách, Không còn coi Duy là anh nữa. Duy ra đường, ai cũng tránh, Như thể Duy là con quái vật. Trẻ con sợ hãi, người lớn xa lánh, Duy cảm thấy mình như kẻ thừa. Có lúc Duy muốn bỏ nhà ra đi, Nhưng không có nơi nào để đến. Chỉ còn cách sống lay lắt, Ngày qua ngày, trong đau khổ và tủi nhục. Duy thường nghĩ về quá khứ, Ngày còn vô tư, chưa biết buồn. Giá như Duy không sa chân, Thì giờ đây, cuộc đời đã khác. Nhưng hối hận cũng chẳng ích gì, Vì thời gian không thể quay lại. Chỉ còn cách chấp nhận số phận, Sống với những gì mình đã gây ra. Câu chuyện của Duy là bài học, Cho những ai đang lầm đường lạc lối. Hãy cẩn thận với cám dỗ, Đừng để bản thân sa vào lưới. Gia đình là nơi yêu thương, Nhưng cũng có giới hạn của sự chịu đựng. Hãy trân trọng những gì mình có, Đừng để mất rồi mới hối tiếc.

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Bury me in glass; watch my blood reflect the sun Crush my brittle bones; snort the dust and call it love Choke me with your absence; let the silence scrape my throat Rewrite my reflection; make it mouth the words you won"t Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through

Bury me in glass; watch my blood reflect the sun Crush my brittle bones; snort the dust and call it love Choke me with your absence; let the silence scrape my throat Rewrite my reflection; make it mouth the words you won"t Drain your fever into me, I wanna burnnnn Just like you, just like you, just like you Crack my skull and let your thoughts take their turnnnnn Think me through, think me through, think me through