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i really can’t tell if i like you or i hate you you really were nice bitch wishing it was true that youuuuu youuuuuu i’m catching up on all these lies convince myself “i know you tried” when i know too well i knew what to do you’ve done this too shake our hands swear to life havin a sign but havin the time of our lives i know it hurts it’s not just you not to be hateful, but i’m eternally grateful for you (for youuuuu) i’ve never known someone like you always been someone who was the one to lose i never been through so many people who try to make me jealous but it looks to good on you i’m catching up on all these lies convince myself “i know you tried” when i know too well i knew what to do you’ve done this too shake our hands swear to life havin a sign but havin the time of our lives i know it hurts it’s not just you not to be hateful, but i’m eternally grateful for you are you cool or toxic if you talk to me like i talk to myself you don’t understand, it’s not what you would like i took too many tries just to end up and die i hope you end up in hell but judged by what i’ve been trying i guess ill meet you there because i’m catching up on all your fuckin lies convince myself “i know you tried” when i know damn well i knew what to do you’ve done this too shake our hands swear to life havin a sign but havin the time of our lives i know it hurts it’s not just you not to be hateful, but i’m eternally grateful for you i’m catching up on all these lies convince myself “i know you tried” when i know too well i knew what to do you’ve done this too shake our hands swear to life havin a sign but havin the time of our lives i know it hurts it’s not just you not to be hateful, but i’m eternally grateful i really can’t decide if i wanna help you or if i wanna lie i’d give you the finger but then id cry for you but you fucked it for yourself

therapy is long gone i writing songs like “i’m so lost” i sit in bed and think “what did i do” i’m feeling colder as i write this song i’ve never wondered for this long the sun rises, then it falls that’s what it feels like to live a life is this how it is for all of us? one day i get a call the next i wonder why deep breaths, hold it in i sit back watching the world piece back together i say “we” too much when it’s only “meeeeeeeee” you were way too reckless i don’t keep up with your lies once i get up, i sigh i’m done playin, next it’s havin fun then bein restless i know you think im crazy i know you think i care the memories a little hazy i’m gettin way too scared tied up and pinned but maybe i really thought you cared the sun rises, then it falls that’s what it feels like to live a life is this how it is for all of us? one day i get a call the next i wonder why deep breaths, hold it in i sit back watching the world piece back together i say “we” too much when it’s only “meeeeeeeee” you were way too reckless i don’t keep up with your lies once i get up, i sigh i’m done playin, next it’s havin fun then bein restless so off you go, skipping on down your so fucked, while i drown it’s me, myself, and bein fine nonchalant, and having lines there are walls but no closure you been alone but still no more you’re alone, but you just fine while i’m the one who’s bein high the sun rises, then it falls that’s what it feels like to live a life is this how it is for all of us? one day i get a call the next i wonder why deep breaths, hold it in i sit back watching the world piece back together i say “we” too much when it’s only “meeeeeeeee” you were way too reckless i don’t keep up with your lies once i get up, i sigh i’m done playin, next it’s havin fun then bein restless it’s off alone im all alone

Got people waitin on me Got people sayin wow I know it’s hard to see What I’m doin Or how You need to the key You need to have it now I keep the locket In my pocket Where it’s safe and sound Ooooooooooooo I can’t wait A nymore Been here the whole Fuckin time I’m done being your little rhyme My heart is heavy, poundin My chest is empty, how? I’m getting to emotional It’s how it is now I couldn’t see it comin I was too busy runnin Away from all my secret I forgot the worst one I was a little victim According to your crime I never had no symptom It was just you and I I’m waiting hand and foot for For you to finally see See what you’ve facing Facing you and me You never did shit, now Please don’t lie to me….. Lie to me Don’t tell me what to do now It was an odyssey Been here alone so It was something just for me

i showed myself what to do when it’s true but i have to ask you, some news show up at my shoe i glanced right over and saw you I feel the heat right now blazin all for you I wish it wasn’t me Who had to tell th truth is it illegal to be so sweet it really was lethal but also a little small treat cause telling lies wasn’t the deal tell yourself that and be real but i know that thats illegal, but wouldn’t it be legal Too? i’m trying my best to to be so set on someone that i know won’t stay being healed don’t mean it’s great Havin faith to make Everyone happy is it illegal to be so sweet it really was lethal but also a little small treat cause telling lies wasn’t the deal tell yourself that and be real but i know that thats illegal, but wouldn’t it be legal for now? am i too happy, or am i too sad? ain’t there no such thing as grieving while your sitting right at home cause it’s too hard to be right here when all i think about is if we’re in the clear is it illegal to be so sweet it really was lethal but also a little small treat cause telling lies wasn’t the deal tell yourself that and be real but i know that thats illegal, but wouldn’t it be legal for now? cause now that i thought breakin hearts was for real them i could’ve would’ve been here i know it’s battle, i fight with myself but it’s ok now, cause i really could tell i tried in my sleep thinkin i was awake never would thought that i would just break right there, so scared, bein the one havin way too much care is it illegal to be so sweet it really was lethal but also a little small treat cause telling lies wasn’t the deal tell yourself that and be real but i know that thats illegal, but wouldn’t it be legal for now? (legal…. for now.) wouldn’t it by legal

(Verse 1) If everyone thinks I'm a fool, let me be one today, They already believe it, so why should I change my way? I’ve been holding onto pain, but I’m letting it go, One step forward, my heart says, “Let it show.” (Pre-Chorus) Don’t take my pain, don’t take it away, It fuels the fire that drives me today. If we were stars burning bright in the sky, Could we find the strength to never ask why? (Chorus) If we were buzzed, flying high, If we could touch the endless sky, If we were anything, we could smile, And make this whole world worth the while. If only we were human, we'd shine through, Maybe they'd love us, maybe they’d see the truth. (Verse 2) I just want one thing, to go my own way, Leave the chains of yesterday, step into today. What was and what is, it’s all in my hands, I’ll build my tomorrow, make them understand. (Pre-Chorus) Don’t take my pain, don’t take it away, It shapes the fight that brings me to stay. If we were songs sung out loud in the dark, We’d light up the night, we’d leave our mark. (Chorus) If we were buzzed, flying high, If we could touch the endless sky, If we were anything, we could smile, And make this whole world worth the while. If only we were human, we'd shine through, Maybe they'd love us, maybe they’d see the truth. (Bridge) I think you'd say it just like you do, We need the old, and what’s coming too. The pieces we’ve lost, the dreams we’ve found, They’re echoes of hope, they’re calling us now. (Chorus) If we were buzzed, flying high, If we could touch the endless sky, If we were anything, we could smile, And make this whole world worth the while. If only we were human, we'd shine through, Maybe they'd love us, maybe they’d see the truth. (Outro) Don’t take my pain, it’s part of my soul, Through every crack, I’ll make myself whole. If only we were human, if only we knew, Maybe we’d find out what love can do.

locked away in the bedside table you could say caged jewels we weaved the sea of gold and silver yarn in return the sea brought onto the shore alms because nothing matters more than the forever lasting music don't call us your fresco we are not yours Go back to those rosemary sisters cuz we are downtown nothing wows us locked away from the world for us to see you could say it's making us crazy Freckles, kisses, my rogue lipstick disappears onto your red mustang and If i say its enough baby, don't stop

[Verse] Shadows whisper tales at night Lost in echoes pale and bright Crying tears we hide away In the silence come what may [Verse 2] Mirror cracked can't see the light Haunted dreams they chill the night Numb and empty feel the fall In a world that can't be called [Chorus] Oh the echoes in the hall Bounce around with voices small Can you hear them when they call Or do we let them fade and stall [Verse 3] Broken pieces scattered wide Fragile hearts we try to hide Waving hands that reach for more On a canvas we ignore [Bridge] Faded hopes and muted screams Living life in fractured dreams Can we find a way to mend Or are we destined to pretend [Chorus] Oh the echoes in the hall Bounce around with voices small Can you hear them when they call Or do we let them fade and stall

Verse 1 I had a picture of us in my mind, Dancing through the years, hands intertwined. A house with a porch, the kids, the dreams, Now it’s just ashes of what could have been. Pre-Chorus I fought the world, I fought myself, But love ain’t something you can put on a shelf. You were my light, my only truth, But life’s cruel hands stole me from you. Chorus I wanted to stay, I wanted to fight, To make you my bride, to hold you each night. But the stars weren’t aligned, our paths torn apart, Almost forever still breaks my heart. Verse 2 I saw the dress you’d wear down the aisle, In my dreams, I held you and your smile. But plans turn to dust, and fate plays its game, Now all I can whisper is your name. Pre-Chorus I tried to hold on, to make it right, But some battles you can’t win despite the fight. You were my reason, my life, my muse, But love sometimes leaves you with nothing to lose. Chorus I wanted to stay, I wanted to fight, To make you my bride, to hold you each night. But the stars weren’t aligned, our paths torn apart, Almost forever still breaks my heart. Bridge Would you still love me in a world where I’m gone? Would you remember the vows we never got to make strong? If I could turn back, rewrite the page, I’d give you my life, erase all the pain. Chorus I wanted to stay, I wanted to fight, To make you my bride, to hold you each night. But the stars weren’t aligned, our paths torn apart, Almost forever still breaks my heart. Outro Almost forever, it’s carved in my soul, A love left unfinished, a story untold. If there’s a next life, I’ll find you again, And we’ll build the forever that should’ve been then.

(Verse 1) Walking through the echoes of a broken sky, Shadows linger longer, and I don’t know why. Each drop on my skin feels like a scar I can’t hide, But I’m still moving forward, fighting through the tide. (Pre-Chorus) The thunder whispers truths I don’t wanna hear, Lightning strikes, but it’s the silence I fear. Every step I take feels heavier than before, But I’m chasing a light I can’t ignore. (Chorus) In the heavy rain, I’m finding my way, Drenched in my pain, but I’ll see a new day. The storm won’t break me, it’s shaping my soul, In the heavy rain, I’m letting it go. (Verse 2) Dreams feel like rivers running out of time, Every bend I take feels like crossing a line. I carry the weight of a world on my back, But I’ll turn this darkness into something it lacks. (Pre-Chorus) The wind screams louder than the voices in my head, But I’ll build a shelter from the words they’ve said. I’m not running; I’m learning to stand, Facing the flood with my heart in my hand. (Chorus) In the heavy rain, I’m finding my way, Drenched in my pain, but I’ll see a new day. The storm won’t break me, it’s shaping my soul, In the heavy rain, I’m letting it go. (Bridge) Every drop is a memory I’m washing away, Every clap of thunder a chance to say, That I’m stronger, I’m wiser, I’m here to stay, Let the storm rage on, I’ll find my way. (Chorus) In the heavy rain, I’m finding my way, Drenched in my pain, but I’ll see a new day. The storm won’t break me, it’s shaping my soul, In the heavy rain, I’m letting it go. (Outro) The clouds will clear, the sun will rise, But for now, I’ll stand beneath these skies. In the heavy rain, I’ve found my flame, I’m not the same, I’m stronger in this heavy rain.