Devesh Laude

(Verse 1) I see your face in every crowd, but I turn away I hear your voice, and my heart begs me to stay But I can't afford this, not the love, not the fall I'm a mess, I'm a storm, I can't give you it all (Pre-Chorus) You were soft, you were warm, you were all that I knew Now you're cold, you're a ghost, like I never had you (Chorus) I just fucking love you, though I just don't want to Not ready, not steady, mind ain't right, heart ain't new I just fucking love you, though I just don't want to Not now, not ever, not like this, not with you (Verse 2) You used to wait, used to care, used to see me through Now you act like I was nothing, like I never knew you I thought love could be paused, thought you'd understand But you walked, you let go, slipped right through my hands (Pre-Chorus) You were kind, you were safe, you were my peace at war Now you're gone, now you're lost, and I don't know you anymore (Chorus) I just fucking love you, though I just don't want to Not ready, not steady, mind ain't right, heart ain't new I just fucking love you, though I just don't want to Not now, not ever, not like this, not with you (Bridge) Maybe in another life, another place, another time I'd be whole, I'd be yours, I'd be strong enough to try But right now, I'm a wreck, I'm a storm left unchecked And you're better off forgetting that we ever even met (Outro) I just fucking love you, though I just don't want to But if you ever come back, maybe then, maybe soon…

As newton discovered gravity can you discover me, in the ocean full of the trees can we share as many ring as a great oak please yet you still don’t know i exist can you be my eve and take a bite of this apple off my tree But a path was made to lead you too me but you met my twin before you could see me as you picked us both from this tree you only took one and it wasn’t me casted aside like a line into the sea i felt alone just like a bird with clipped wings tied to linked to stuck to trapped to you I wish i met you first i wish it could have been me what we should have been if you only choose me forced to be around you knowing it hurts you copy my every move like my twin it makes me wonder if i’m him it breaks my heart to hear your voice say his name because you weren’t made for him as i sleep alone in this bed made for two the only thing i can hear is you in the other room the only thought in my brain is how i could get you tied to linked to stuck to trapped to I wish i met you first i wish it could have been me what we should have been if you only choose me daydreams of you flood my mind i needed a break as the bottle broke i saw you crying over a shattered mirror im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry a bird out of his cage a fish being caught a cloud flying through the sky and the stars drifting apart i felt free by the sight of his cold eyes looking up at you as you cry and weep in front of me i start to think of you and me cut loose unbound broke free saved from as you break down you try and put the pieces back together you can’t see a thing the only thing that you can see is another me help help help hello this is 911 how can we help you help me he’s after me to as you run away the only thing i can do is follow your shadow might kill you but i would never touch i see you saved no longer trapped cut loose unbound broke free saved from Me as you slowly drive away i can only see myself trapped in another cage

oh, my love My friend you know it's been a while Without thinking of you but the thought makes me smile chorus I'm so tired of wanting wanting more than this i know it but what am i to do i need some space to breathe, so give me some room verse oh, my love you're coming with me I know you'll leave me one day can you just stay till monday the thought makes me smile chorus I'm so tired of wanting wanting more than this i know it but what am i to do i need some space to breathe, so give me some room so give me some room i need room outro smile (Verse 2) Oh, my love, the sun it shines A little brighter when you're mine But shadows linger, I can see The "goodbye" waiting there for me (Chorus) I'm so tired of wanting Wanting more than this I know it, but what am I to do? I need some space to breathe, So give me some room (Bridge) Maybe Tuesday, you could stay Just one more day, come what may We'll laugh and dance, forget the end Pretend this feeling will transcend (Verse 3) Oh, my love, don't look so sad We'll make the most of what we've had And when you go, I'll understand A love like ours can't be contained, it's grand (Chorus) I'm so tired of wanting Wanting more than this I know it, but what am I to do? I need some space to breathe, So give me some room So give me some room I need room (Outro) Smile... through the tears Smile... through the years

Jaane kahan mera yaar gaya ji, Abhi abhi yahi tha, kidhar gaya ji, Kisi ki baahon mein kho gaya ji, Mujhko tanha yahan chhod gaya ji. Jo baat adhuri thi, adhuri hi rahi, Main sochti rahi, par khamoshi hi sahi, Puchu to keh de ‘abhi waqt nahi’, Par duniya se baatein zaroor ho rahi. Dil ka raaz kaise kahun bata, Jo mera tha woh mera raha hi na, Ek taraf pyaar, ek taraf bewafa, Main hi pagal thi jo socha tha ‘haq hai na’? Ab na bulaungi, na manaungi, Jo chaha tha usko bhool jaungi, Par dil yeh keh raha chupke se, Woh aaye to phir se muskuraungi...

আরে এ গাধাদের দল, কেন এত রং-ঢং? নেশা কর কম। সব দূরে গিয়ে মরা। আমি তোদের হোগা মারি, কথা ক কম। যত সব চোদনার লগে, করছি বন্ধন। স্বাগতম, স্বাগতম, স্বাগতম বোকাচোদার হুর পাড়াতে; ভাম্বোলা, খানকির পোলা, হালা বাথ্রুমের দরজাটা খুল-রে পেয়াজ কি অনিয়ন- সে তো একি কথা, তোদের অস্তিত্ত পুরাডাই ব্যার্থতা। পরমাণুর fyp তে আহে এডি কি, উপরে নিচে, ডানে বামে "Sorry" উপরে নিচে শুধু খালি Baddie তে ভর্তি। নির্বিচ got no bitch, তা আমি চুদিনা। চুগ্ধর সাথে দুগ্ধ ছাড়া আর তো কিছু মিলে না । অর্ধেক নান খেয়ে পেট তো ভাই ভরে না, উদ্ভট শত উল্টো চিন্তায় জীবন কভু আগায় না। না, না, ওয় যে part-time প্রতিবন্ধী, নিজের হোগা নিজে মারতে, নিজের লগেই সন্ধি৷ ভোস্কাইন্যার চোদনে, মাথা করে হনহন। ভাংগা ফ্রিজের ভাংগা মাল করছে জীবন ধন। আরেএএএএএএএ ভোস্কাইন্যার চোদনে, মাথা করে হনহন। ভাংগা ফ্রিজের ভাংগা মাল করছে জীবন ধন৷

[Intro] # Verse 1 Duk-kah ku ma ka-a Mislah na ma pangatayan Dayang ka-a dasa makala-an Bay na ni tuyu-an Ma jantung ni pahalam Tu-ud subay ruka kabalikan # Verse 2 Bay na ni lugtu-an Ngalupa paglumad-bagay Sagut pikilan ku mbal usay Entom ma deyom jantung Landuh buhat ni kandung Llaw-sangom bayhuh nu-palambung # Chorus Tunggal ka-a Isi deyom jantung Mbal kapindahan Ma sataggol ku llum Tiyap waktu Daran ka ni piha Napsu ma entom ku Na-abbit kahadir nu # Verse 3 Bud atas ni tukad Sallog atas ni sangat Hasupaya dukkah ku papapas Sogoh halam upaya Aku manusiyah sidja Labbay ngalupa bay paglumad-ta [ Chorus] Tunggal ka-a Isi deyom jantung Mbal kapindahan Ma sataggol ku llum Tiyap waktu Daran ka ni piha Napsu ma entom ku Na-abbit kahadir nu

I tried to breath while my bodies buried underground My screams are talking to me during a conversation I have a whole life with no name and I am still fucking my place instead of growing myself If I could take I would eat that cake and If I could die I'd jump somewhere high

Let me be, let me be Let me, let me be Be the, oohhh Be the, oohhh Be the, be the , be the Be the biggest Biggest Biggest, biggest fool + I'm the fool Fool that looks like a stupid It is my choice It is my choice It is my choice I made it so long ago When I was just a soul Kill me in there Kill me Kill me in there Kill me Kill me in there Kill me in there Kill me soon Kill me again Kill me good I'm the fool Like a big joke Let me be the biggest fool That's true, doesn't it? + Hitting the ground Sniffing the glue Crashing the line Blaming to mirror Filming the mood Killing soon and horn + (I can not be dead) (I have long life to live) (Don't blame me) (It was just a fool me) Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool, fool Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool me, fool me, fool me Fool, fool Fool, fool Fool, fool Fool, fool

Verse 1 Ketika langit mulai gelap Aku berjalan tanpa arah Rindu yang datang, menyesakkan Seperti gurun di hatiku yang kering Pre-Chorus Kau pergi tinggalkan luka Meninggalkan rasa haus di dada Tak ada air yang bisa meredakan Cinta yang hilang dalam keheningan Chorus Aku haus akan cintamu Seperti padang yang menunggu hujan Kau yang jauh, aku yang merindu Hati ini tak bisa berhenti berharap Hati ini haus, haus akan dirimu Verse 2 Setiap malam aku terjaga Mencari jejakmu di bayang-bayang Seperti api yang padam perlahan Tak ada yang bisa menghangatkan hatiku Pre-Chorus Kau pergi tinggalkan luka Meninggalkan rasa haus di dada Tak ada air yang bisa meredakan Cinta yang hilang dalam keheningan Chorus Aku haus akan cintamu Seperti padang yang menunggu hujan Kau yang jauh, aku yang merindu Hati ini tak bisa berhenti berharap Hati ini haus, haus akan dirimu Bridge Mungkinkah ada harapan? Untuk kita kembali bersama Keringkan air mataku, cinta Dan beri aku sedikit kasihmu Chorus Aku haus akan cintamu Seperti padang yang menunggu hujan Kau yang jauh, aku yang merindu Hati ini tak bisa berhenti berharap Hati ini haus, haus akan dirimu Outro Aku haus, aku haus Haus akan dirimu Aku haus, aku haus Rinduku tak pernah reda

"Golden Light (Pretending Not to Know)" (Inspired by the style of Jaded Fordo) Verse 1 Golden light falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it’s not for me, I’m the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Fading like a dream, just a mere existence. Pretending not to feel the stories untold, A love that lingers, but never unfolds. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Verse 2 You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Lost in the haze of my own persistence. Pretending I don’t care when I already know, I’m chasing a flame that refuses to glow. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. Bridge I built a world where you might stay, But it’s crumbling with each passing day. I’m a poet lost in my own disguise, Writing songs you’ll never realize. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Outro Golden light falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, Pretending not to feel what I already know.

"Golden Light (Pretending Not to Know)" (Inspired by the style of Jaded Fordo) Verse 1 Golden light falling like waves on the shore, Three years gone, still I want more. Your laugh echoes, but it’s not for me, I’m the ghost in your periphery. Six months of silence, no words to share, I’m reaching out, but you’re barely there. Every message, just a hollow reply, I’m a fool still asking why. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Fading like a dream, just a mere existence. Pretending not to feel the stories untold, A love that lingers, but never unfolds. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Verse 2 You walk through my mind like you own the place, But in real life, there’s no room for my face. I’ve been a shadow, always in the back, While your light’s on another track. The fear of rejection, it’s a heavy chain, But not knowing is driving me insane. I wonder if you even care I’m here, Or if I’m just another voice you barely hear. Pre-Chorus And I see your heart in the distance, Lost in the haze of my own persistence. Pretending I don’t care when I already know, I’m chasing a flame that refuses to glow. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even care, But still, I’m caught in your golden snare. Three years gone, and I still can’t let go, Even though your silence tells me so. Bridge I built a world where you might stay, But it’s crumbling with each passing day. I’m a poet lost in my own disguise, Writing songs you’ll never realize. Chorus Golden light, you’re my silent regret, A dream I can’t wake from, a love unmet. I’m drowning in the words I can’t ever say, Afraid you’ll just let me drift away. Golden light, you don’t even try, But somehow you keep me tied to the lie. That maybe, just maybe, you’d see me someday, But your silence keeps pushing me away. Outro Golden light falling like waves on the shore, I know I can’t have you, but I want you more. Six months no talking, just a hollow hello, Pretending not to feel what I already know.